i am CONFUSE with....

Sometimes,I'm confuse that what a person am I?
WHAT A PERSON AM I?
(can u tell me?)
Am I a bad girl?Am I a pura-pura people?

Why I must just smile to any1,doesn't it tired for me?
Why I must say 'paiseh...' or 'sorry...'even though is not my fault?
Why should I care of people's face, mouth,expressions,words?
Isn't that is TIRED to care of people,to live for others?
WHY I can't just DO what I LIKE,TALK what I LIKE?

I'm not a good person that can do everything well,
I'm a person whom will make mistakes in anytime.
I'm dissappointed to myself also SOMETIMES.