MOODY

I am moody...VERY moody...SUPER moody...

1st--My computer has problem already.Looking for someone to help me reformat computer.I'm regret that din't learn how to format computer from teacher last time.

2nd--I feel sorry to my family,because I have did something wrong, but I have already try my best to do my best.

3rd--................................................................

i am CONFUSE with....

Sometimes,I'm confuse that what a person am I?
WHAT A PERSON AM I?
(can u tell me?)
Am I a bad girl?Am I a pura-pura people?

Why I must just smile to any1,doesn't it tired for me?
Why I must say 'paiseh...' or 'sorry...'even though is not my fault?
Why should I care of people's face, mouth,expressions,words?
Isn't that is TIRED to care of people,to live for others?
WHY I can't just DO what I LIKE,TALK what I LIKE?

I'm not a good person that can do everything well,
I'm a person whom will make mistakes in anytime.
I'm dissappointed to myself also SOMETIMES.

云，真的不能拥有那？

第一次这句话，可以像风...

那样...来得快去得也快。

第二次这句话，可以像月亮，

借着第一次的话而开始关注了...

第三次那句话，可像太阳了，
是那么得耀眼，是那么得瞩目...

耀眼得，瞩目得，不得不采取行动...

可是...再耀眼，再受瞩目...

是否有想过云的出现呢？

风会把云吹散的，

月亮可以因云而变暗淡，

太阳可以因云而变阴天。

你们有想过云的存在吗？
有时被忽略的乌云，

因你们的厌恶，

不想为你们带来场大雨，

而逼自己不断的闪躲，不断的逃避，

不断得忍着对你们的雨水。

云，今天疲惫了...云，今天无奈了...

云，今天乱想了...云，今天想你们...

可是，这些辛苦的疲惫，忍耐的无奈，无聊的乱想...

能将它藏在哪处？

我需要...你们的支持，你们的关心，你们的了解，

可是，这些需要不再多，不再跟随我了...

是我的改变吗？我真的错了吗？

我不贪心，我只需要简单的一句，

什么都可以...

5/9 apartment stay

5/9 2D1N
Drama n Dance Society---Sri Sayang Apartment Stay
I'm lazy to write more about the days,
Just to post and show the pictures I had take...

This is what we do during boring,of course is take photo as memory...

We go shopping along the Batu Feringghi Street Pasar Malam...Have you all see the teddy bear in the photo?That is Mr.Bean Teddy Bear,now is belong to me already...it's name is 豆豆...I like it very much,it is my first teddy bear also...haha....thx 4 Mr.Shine be my model take photo with me 'bean bean'...(actually he also want take photo with his hat de...haha...)

This is the view early morning...
this is a dead fish laying on the beach...the fish is very pity la... hahaha...do you know how to read the chinese words?
erm...guess yourself what they write...i just take photo only....so...don't blame me yea...

the sea was so dirty that day...like the pond water which the KERBAU like 2 bath in...
this is cute Fragrance...
this is our junior,bt i really 4get what his name already...paiseh...:-p

our society's vice-president
yuppee!!!!do u see our legs?
haha~~u SEE~~~u SEE~~~the hands' colours from fair to dark...

just guess whose hand is that...

I gonna CRY

I'm so down now...
I'm sad after received a message from the person...
I think maybe I really have did wrong...
I didn't think that I will bring troubles to them...
Now, I'm trying to make myself better
and
Do you know I'm trying to do what I can do already...
I'm thinking the way to solve it also...

Can you all stop complain about me?
Can you all stop talking something about me?
Can you all don't do something that you think to get back somemore love?
Because I didn't think to fight with you, compete for love!!!!
I don't ever think to get more love!!!!
I just do what i do!!!
I just BE MYSELF!!!
I'm really sad that always hear something from them...
Is it fair?
Is it your responsibility?

坚持V.S努力

有时想
自己坚持了什么？
自己努力了什么？

自己为什么坚持？
自己为什么努力？

这些坚持与努力，
又将会是如何呢？

我真的有坚持过吗？
我真的有努力过吗？

脑海中的坚持，
行为上的努力，
真的是坚持和努力吗？
坚持与努力是正确的？

而这一些又能维持多久？
我又该维持多久呢？

或许
这些坚持的坚持，不该坚持
这些努力的努力，不是努力

不懂...
你懂吗？
也许很难？
对你难不难？
想到了跟我说....

成长/不成长 n 失约

成长
什么是成长？
每一件事都有成长吗？
要如何才会有所成长？
要如何才知成长存在？

我发现 一个人
如果没有了宁静
没有了
意志 压力
信心 目标
那成长
将会是很遥远的事

当成长来临时
成就感，欢喜
将从心头涌起

可是

当成长不再了
陌生感，失落
将困扰了自己
生活也乏闷了

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没能履行的承诺
在之前答应你们
要陪你们一同参赛
今天突然反悔了
不是我想，不是我原意
只是我得，我得听从他

谢谢你们教了我很多逃难的方式
你们说的，我何妨没想过
可是...只是...对他...不能...
因为我始终都得顺从他
没有了他就没有今天的我
给他的时间真的很少了
这是我唯一能顺从他的意思