2009年12月29日星期二
Travel n Leave
I want to LEAVE Penang…
Don’t know WHY…
I just want to go to a quiet place…
Refresh my mind
and
stay far away from the thing I HEADACHE of…
Without STUFFS, without PROBLEMS…
WHO want to join me?
Where can I go?
2009年12月28日星期一
X'mas Eve
Then, back to college to pass up the proposal and settle up all the national debate competition stuff...
Luckily, this time Mr.Chum didn’t scold and complain me anymore…
After that, I rush to work till 7pm...pity that X’mas eve also have to work…
But, today is my LAST day of work...
Today, I really want to say thanks to my friends for purposely be my driver and sent me back to college and work...really touch lor...:p
Plan to celebrate my X'mas alone but at last I make a decision, I follow Jeremy to his church X'mas countdown...I'm not a Christian, but I just very curious at how their celebration…
Anyway I like it, X’mas carol, candles lighten in the dark, ginger bread man, and X’mas wishes…
Today, my last day of work…
YOU SEE!!How good girl am I?!
I listen to what you say and resign...
but I know...no matter how good am I...
It was already passed and you don’t care anymore,
scold me anymore...I know...I know...
Maybe…resign also all for my own good,
Maybe…is better to concentrate on my study,
As what u say…
2009年12月23日星期三
回首2009
2009年来到了尾声了,回首看看这一年,自问过得如何。
变勇敢了
独自离乡背井来到槟城这陌生的环境,生活与学业上都得重新开始,自己独自面对所有的困难。有时,真的会觉得很难过…很苦恼…很辛苦…可是,一切就微笑中带过吧…
从搭上飞机前一刻相比,觉得: “佩蓉,你,勇敢了…!!!”
还单纯吗?
从一个生活简单的家乡来到花花世界的城市,这一年的探险与挫折,有让我从单纯变得不那么单纯了吗?我觉得有一点点,你觉得呢?当初身边的朋友总会说: “佩蓉, 为什么你那么单纯? 真担心你会被人家骗!”你们一句句的担心,我都觉得很温馨,虽然有点间接在表达 “单纯”= “笨”。
唯有透过你们的担心,让我觉得你们的关心。谢谢你们!!!
朋友圈子
中学生涯经历过朋友间总会发生的 “趣事”,还以为来到了学院生活 “趣事”就会不再。后来发现原来“不是”,原来 “趣事”总会发生只要‘朋友 ’这两个字存在你的生活中。一起吃喝玩乐的朋友,很多!一起熬夜念书的朋友,不多!一起分享心事的朋友,可数!一起疯狂放肆的朋友,还有!一起辩论交流的朋友,不熟!
朋友们,谢谢你们,因为你们让我的生活不那么乏味,让我的生活有多道彩虹!
找到肯定
透过辩论,透过录音,找到了自己的肯定,应该找到自己的定位了吧!从当初参加主持比赛的怀疑,到今天受别人的肯定。觉得自己应该更努力朝自己梦想迈进。
迈向梦想的路程不简单,但是,还是想尝试,还是要坚持。佩蓉,加油!!!
感情生活
这一年里的感情生活还是一样,还是保持在S!!!有时,看见身边恋爱中的朋友觉得很幸福!可是,有时,看见他们的苦境就觉得“单身生活还不错”!(会是吃不到葡萄说葡萄酸吗?不懂!)嘻嘻…这一年里,身边不是不曾出现过桃花,只是觉得这些盛开的花朵可定为“烂桃花”吧!一次次的“烂桃花”真得让我学习到,让我成长过,还得感谢他们呢!:P
是“好”?是“烂”?觉得一切都随缘吧…“强求”只会让自己感觉更疲惫…
工作
这一年里,有将近8个月都埋头于学业和工作,在Maggie T工作不曾后悔,因为与同事的相处,偶尔会让我有家的感觉。很喜欢跟他们工作,三八,聊天,相处…可是,最后还是因为学业抛弃了他们,这是我的遗憾.
无论如何,你们是我来到这另一群像家人一样的朋友。
学业
觉得自己“临时抱佛脚”的习惯还没戒掉,觉得是时候好好计划,不要把它带到明年了。
我也很努力的让自己维持在一定的成绩,嗯…真的很难!因为自己不是聪明的小孩。
很多事情不努力,不尽力又怎对得起自己和家人呢?
还有还有...朋友们,如果这一年里,我有做了或说了些什么让你们不开心,不舒服,对不起...多多原谅...
最后,我想说:有时真觉得自己真的很幸福。为什么?因为,这一年里,身边出现的朋友和同事都很疼我,他们不曾欺负我,他们不曾离弃我。时时让我觉得自己不孤单,时时让我觉得被疼爱,照顾。那一种,你们对我好的感觉,我收到了,很感动感动…我也收放在心中了。真的很谢谢你们!!!!!
过去这一年里,
生活上,朋友上,
感情上,学业上,
都遇上不顺心,不开心.
可是,过去就过去吧!!
一切都随倒数欢呼而去吧!!
从新展开我的2010年!!
喜欢微笑,
微笑,总让我更坚强。
2009年12月20日星期日
I wan an answer
I'm so confuse...
From the beginning to now...
Why the things happen fast n finish fast?
Is it still-ING or finish already...?
Can u just tell me an answer...
I dun care what is the answer is...
I just wan a answer to let me know what to do n act after this...
I dun wan in this situation anymore...
Is very tired for me to seek for the answer...
2009年12月5日星期六
彩虹的鼓励
在梦中,
我梦见了彩虹...
七彩的彩虹就在我身前,
就在身前...
梦见了彩虹,我是那么地兴奋。
我心中有一种感觉,一种想直跃踏上彩虹,
走到彩虹的另一端。
可是在跃起的那一刻,我放下了双足...
心中有所犹豫,悸动...
我在想
要踏上这道彩虹,我需要做些什么准备吗?
在彩虹的另一端,是我想要的吗?
踏上了彩虹,我会是开心的?幸福的?
彩虹真的能安全送我到另一端吗?
这彩虹是真的吗?
或许
我不必顾虑那么多
或许
我不该怀疑那么多
或许
我不必烦恼那么多
彩虹啊~彩虹啊~
你能放指示牌让我更确认吗?
你能做些什么让我更信任吗?
你能与我有个真实的对话吗?
确认,信任,对话
或许是我踏上你的鼓励...
I hate be the GAME
Then WHY?
WHY the game have so many players already?
Don't you feel suffer?
or
You are enjoying?
I feel tired.
I feel CONFUSE!!!!
I HATE MY OWN FEEL!!!
I dun mind...dun mind...
Maybe you can stand beside me or another player.
Maybe you chat with me...teach me...tell me my wrongs...
But WHY?WHY I feel like so uncomfortable!!!
I feel like...
I have be the GAME and not the PLAYER!!!
Don't you think so?!
or
I'm wrong in thinking like this...
Don't make me feel so again, can?
I really hate it...very don't like it...
2009年12月1日星期二
你还好吗?
你的不闻不问让我很担心,
是你把我抛出脑海了吗?
还是你发生什么事了?
很想送上自己的问候,
却怕忙中的你无法回。
听说你生病了,还好吗?
好好休息,别让身边关心你的朋友担心...
2009年11月23日星期一
Nonsenses
with...with...with...yoU...yOU...YOU...
recently, there are many things change around me and happen on me...
the changes make me feel scare...
is the changes good or bad for me?
PLEASE...PLEASE...please tell me...
the things i can do know is...
I DON'T KNOW!!!
I know I'm not responsible to myself when I say such words...
But...无奈,无言,无话
2009年11月19日星期四
突访的感觉
你明白那种站在人前拍掌肯定的那一刻滋味吗?
你了解那种在播音室里欢乐畅谈的那种感觉吗?
那种掌声响起,那种别人肯定,是真的很怀念。
说真的很怀念站在舞台的感觉,很怀念拿起麦克风的感觉。
来槟城也将近1年了,在这一年,我真的想了好多好多,
我曾经犹豫自己的选择是对的吗?
我曾经怀疑自己的能力是有的吗?
我曾经苦恼自己要的是这样的吗?
我曾经责问自己要的有争取过吗?
我很喜欢站在众人前带的微笑,诉说或传达自己的想法,
然后,专心聆听我的人,因为认同回予你的一个微笑,一个轻微的点头。
那种感觉会让无论多辛苦的你,都会觉得一切都是值得的…
所以对我来说“微笑”是人与人之间的一种简单的沟通方式…
因为你我微笑了,因为我心微笑了...
希望突访的您,能再次来访,不需要每一天,
只要是能再见。
2009年11月17日星期二
I SAW meteor!!!
I saw the meteor(流星)~~~!!!
To complete my Basic News Writing News Report Assignment, I had been to Paradise Beach to interview the public....
1ST time I saw the METEOR...
It disappear so FAST, just a few second only...
I shouted so excitedly when I saw it....
hahaha~~~~
But it was not enough time for me to make a wish...
I'm now thinking...what wish should I make when I saw that...
heheh!!:P
2009年11月13日星期五
What to do?
I try to shut down my laptop,
switched off the lights,
lay down and close my eyes...
But it is difficult 4 me to sleep,
because the brain non-stop thinking something,
something that make me upset,
make my life upside down...
I hate the feel like this...
I hate the feel back to me...
And I dun knw what to do to solve it...
I will just ignore the problems and d
o something that can make me forget it for a moment.
I know this is not the best way because it is stil haven't solve yet...
But...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO...
I feel I'm not the one I am as before...
I felt dissapointed, I felt sad....
Where am I?
不会有的永远
相信它不会永远守在你身旁,
冷落它一段时候后,它将离你远去,
虽然不是你故意的,也许你是无心,
可是它始终不会从一而终。
遥望着无际的海洋,
仰望着无星的夜空,
感觉一切都不在了。
当初为了好玩把你骗到身旁,
把你放在手上把玩的得意忘形。
从不想过你的感受,
日子久了,发现不再需要你了,
我随手将你抛开,
不曾想过你的感受,只在乎我的想法。
如今发现,我失去你了,
我在犹豫我需要把你找回我身旁吗?
还是,我重新找个新的?
你问我是真心的想要你会来吗?
说实在的,不懂...
我在犹豫,彷徨...
2009年11月10日星期二
Assignment + Presentation
Assignment-Essay with topic Internet-15 pages
wasai....is really very tough...15 pages is really many... you know? or maybe is just because I start my work late, I start my work on saturday and i finish the last 9 pages on monday midnight... that is why I will be so suffer...临时抱佛脚....
But at last I finish already in Traders Hotel while waiting my sister... This is really an unusual and unforgotten experience... Im glad n proud that I have done it well and finish...!!!!
Presentation- Introduction to mass comm
title:What he strength and weaknesses of Global Village?
Global village...read...spell...think...write...very easy rite?
I told u...That is nt easy as what u think... because u will confuse with what the differences between global village and globalisation... I and my partner, Shine, had suffered for it for LONG time.... Lecture told us that global village is an area... BUT through net info, by asking my teacher,other lecture,they say that it is not an area is a concept...
HAH??????GLOBAL VILLAGE is CONCEPT?
OR
A place or AREA in world?
Headache and CONFUSE!!!
At last we decided to believe that GLOBAL VILLAGE is a CONCEPT.... YEAH!!!we decide correct and had a not bad presentation yesterday(9/11)... I say 'NOT BAD' because I shy to say it is 'GOOD'... wakakaka.....:pAt least I satisfied our presentation and glad that I have a good Partner... He really did good in the QnA section... He good in thinking and answering and explaining... I really "waaahhhh..."...hahaha....
And....I also happy that teacher say about my SMILE...
paiseh....hahahahah....
GOOD FOR THE YESTERDAY=MONDAY!!!
2009年11月6日星期五
Just write for FUN
jux finish doing research for my Monday's assignment
erm...stil hav a lot...a lot to write...
but...now...really cnt tahan dy...
flu is here...assignment is here...presentation is here...
hav their accompany really not BORING...
erm...jux nw chat with my ex-schmates...
i know they are facing prob,bt hope all will fine after 2mr...
and somemore i wan to say is....
errr........GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE~~~
Muackzzzz........
2009年11月3日星期二
安息吧!
圆圆的明月挂在异乡黑夜中
你们那怎样了?
有明月吗?还是下着毛毛细雨?
准备着那繁重的assignment,
小强msn的呼唤唤醒了我,
他的一句话更让我….
“张文彬去世了…”
什么?我看着荧幕的字眼,
我不敢相信,我来回的看,再三确定。
怎么了?
好像那瞬间都停了…
脑海中不断翻开与他的回忆…
有吗?
有!可是很模糊!
2年里,记忆中有他站在舞台上高唱,
无论是在新春晚会,校庆,还是比赛…
2年里,我们虽然不曾有过熟络的交谈,
至少我们曾经擦肩而过,曾经点头微笑,
曾经玩笑清谈…
可是这些曾经只能是曾经,不能重演…
还记得毕业典礼上,你为我们演的农夫,
我真的不懂,或许去年毕业典礼,
或许今年8月回家乡回母校时我们曾经碰面…
但这些不重要,重要的是你曾经在我生命中出现…
我们两个在交谈的5分钟,几乎都是无言…
亲爱的朋友们,你们一定要好好保重自己了…
文彬,安息吧!
2009年10月29日星期四
喂...
受累了,演累了,
恼累了,心累了,
累了,累了,都累了...
现在我,只想闹!
如果我:"喂...",不说什么
如果我叫你的名字,不说什么,
不要奇怪,不要好奇,
我只是想叫罢了...
我只想确定你在我身边...
我只想确定有人陪着我...
我很想去放肆,
我很想去呐喊!
我很想做些新奇的事!
走!!!我们一起去吧!!!
不想知道了,很累!
我不苛求什么 ,
我不苛求全世界是我的。
我只希望永恒在我心中。
永恒,真的能永恒吗?
你说能...他没回答...
可是,我的心始终在挣扎着...
不是我不相信,只是我害怕...
我曾经因为害怕失去,而湿了脸...
我每天不断提醒自己,珍惜现在...
永恒,参杂了调味料。
这些上千上百的调味料,
你能与我一起征服它的期限吗?
我每一天不断地提醒自己,
做好自己,珍惜他人...
做好自己,我很努力,
或许这一刻,那一瞬间,你觉得我没怎么好...
可是你知道?
你知道我真的很努力,真的很努力...
我很努力不去伤害任何人,
我很努力压制自己的情绪,
我很努力站在别人立场想,
我很努力在你面前办好角色。
可是为什么我每一回的努力,都是错的?
我说我不期望你给我什么,
我只想简单,
简单的真心,简单的交谈,
简单的互动,简单的相信。
可是,在我简单的要求下,
如果我知道你对我不好,
如果我知道你背叛了我,
如果我知道不该知道的,
很抱歉,真的很抱歉,
我会心淡,
对你的相信,还在吗?
对你的笑容,是真的?
从新来过,能吗?好吗?
我不知道...I DUN KNW!!
我很累。。。
2009年10月22日星期四
是非分不清
如果你觉得我的转告
让你觉得我很过分
让你觉得我是错的
那就算了
也许我不应该转告你
也许当初我更不应该烦恼是否要跟你说
或许偶尔我的好心
却让你认为是坏心肠
算了!
我以后都不会理了
我不想跟你说什么
解释什么
因为我觉得这次
我也不应该也不需要说
‘对不起。。。’
2009年10月13日星期二
2009年10月7日星期三
What a SPECIAL day...
2009年10月6日星期二
END
Let all these end here...
I dun wan to THINK,SAY,HEAR ANYMORE...
所有的事就让它结束!!
你给我的,你就拿走吧!
你带走的,不会是我的!
让我一切回到原点,
那个原有的,属于我的!
不断地播放[隐性的翅膀]
听起来真的知道。。。
[我一直有双隐形的翅膀 带我飞 飞过绝望]
[不去想他们拥有美丽的太阳 我看见每天的夕阳也会有变化]
[我终于翱翔 用心凝望不害怕 哪里会有风 就飞多远吧]
真的会想起这首歌曾经给我的回忆
说得真得没错...............
2009年10月2日星期五
中秋节快
第一次在异乡庆祝,庆祝?有吗?
想起每逢节日全家都会有的聚餐,
想念家里餐桌上一道道熟悉佳肴。
好想吃顿家常便饭,简单的,就好...
不需要山珍海味,不需要可口美味,
只需要清茶淡饭,只需要家的感觉。
旧时月饼堆满我家橱,
如今月饼摆满各摊位。
以前家里的月饼都会放着不吃,
现在在外的月饼想吃也就得自己掏腰包买了。
虽然长到十九个年头了,
可还是有着玩灯笼的念头。
不是长不大,只是想体会那节日的气氛。
好想...好想...提灯笼...
明天睡醒就要去工作了,
工作完也是晚上10点了,离12点还有两个小时。
这两个小时,能过个有什么不同的中秋吗?
还是,只有呆在姐姐工作的地方,默默的度过?
无论如何,祝身边的朋友们,中秋节快乐!!!
Dim Sum Memory
Today after class,I,Nicole,Rachel,Zoell,Shine and Jeremy,
go to look for makan again...
At first we plan to have our breakfast and lunch at 'House of Dim Sum' which opposite the KDU college...
Who know when we reach,they off 2day...
Really...Really SAD...
Today,everyone's mood also very bad...
Just because the Graphic Design assignment...
I didn't sleep for the whole night...
or just can say just a 2 hours nap only...
But I know that,how tired am I,I can't show out any emotion or moody face...
Because they are many people who tired also and if we show that face and emotion to others..
this is not fair to them...erm...this is just what I think...
So,SMILE is the best way!!!Seem,the 'House of Dim Sum' closed,we changed place to the dim sum's restaurant behind 'Red Rock Hotel'...Zoell and Shine
Me, Jeremy, RachelZoell, Me, ShineJust FUN,3 of us have different face expression...lol
I really like the feel 6 of us go out Makan and gathering...
I hope that our FRIENDSHIP will last LONG...
I will appreciate every moment we have...
GUYS,I LOVE you all...
2009年9月27日星期日
19th Birthday's celebration...
19 candles on 6 chicken n cheese paratha and a piece of cake.
3rd plan-BED,Pulau Tikus(Last decision n b there at 11.50pm)
Mr. Shine
28/9/09-11.30pm,Hostel 18-1-2
2009年9月22日星期二
What I do...
Erm....actually I'm not very busy, just do not have the mood...
So..today I'm here to upload some photo that I take in this week...
16/9/2009
19/9/2009
(ME,Sally,Audry,Mei Mei,Lee Ling)
I work at MAGGIE T for about 5-6 months already...every month we sure will held a gathering...And this is we take in this month's gathering party...
Then, we plan to have our lunch at Sunrise Pizza Hut...
But...haiz...still short of Shine,Carrie and Kamini....
After having our lunch...we go to visit our pity patient...Mr.Shine...We had bought 2 bottles of 'Bitter Tea' n 5 cups of 'Gui Ling Gao'...Why we buy 2 bottles 'Bitter Tea'?Just because we want to see how he suffer to drink finish it...Why we buy 5 cups of 'Gui Ling Gao'?Just because we want to try the taste and eat together,5 cups are not all belong to him de...hehe...
2009年9月13日星期日
MOODY
1st--My computer has problem already.Looking for someone to help me reformat computer.I'm regret that din't learn how to format computer from teacher last time.
2nd--I feel sorry to my family,because I have did something wrong, but I have already try my best to do my best.
3rd--................................................................
2009年9月10日星期四
i am CONFUSE with....
WHAT A PERSON AM I?
(can u tell me?)
Am I a bad girl?Am I a pura-pura people?
Why I must just smile to any1,doesn't it tired for me?
Why I must say 'paiseh...' or 'sorry...'even though is not my fault?
Why should I care of people's face, mouth,expressions,words?
Isn't that is TIRED to care of people,to live for others?
WHY I can't just DO what I LIKE,TALK what I LIKE?
I'm not a good person that can do everything well,
I'm a person whom will make mistakes in anytime.
I'm dissappointed to myself also SOMETIMES.
2009年9月8日星期二
云,真的不能拥有那?
是那么得耀眼,是那么得瞩目...
有时被忽略的乌云,
2009年9月7日星期一
5/9 apartment stay
Drama n Dance Society---Sri Sayang Apartment Stay
I'm lazy to write more about the days,
Just to post and show the pictures I had take...
We go shopping along the Batu Feringghi Street Pasar Malam...Have you all see the teddy bear in the photo?That is Mr.Bean Teddy Bear,now is belong to me already...it's name is 豆豆...I like it very much,it is my first teddy bear also...haha....thx 4 Mr.Shine be my model take photo with me 'bean bean'...(actually he also want take photo with his hat de...haha...)
This is the view early morning...
this is a dead fish laying on the beach...the fish is very pity la... hahaha...do you know how to read the chinese words?
erm...guess yourself what they write...i just take photo only....so...don't blame me yea...
the sea was so dirty that day...like the pond water which the KERBAU like 2 bath in...
this is cute Fragrance...
this is our junior,bt i really 4get what his name already...paiseh...:-p
our society's vice-president
yuppee!!!!do u see our legs?
haha~~u SEE~~~u SEE~~~the hands' colours from fair to dark...
just guess whose hand is that...